Friday, December 3, 2010

Lonesome

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The reflection you see
Is the same as everyone sees
But not the way I do.
Look carefully
and you "might" see
The little creak of loneliness
like I do.

You might find her scary
You might assume she is heartless
You might have heard that she is cold and grey
But look carefully
She "might" still have a yellow ray
Somewhere hidden inside her.

You might think and rant
"Oh she is such an ice
that she might not even react.
Go see for yourself,
hit,swear do whatever you want
then look at her act"
True she wont even react
But the hurt you caused
Someday or the other,if not her
Someone will make you pay for that.

Every action she does
You humor them
You think she is crazy,out of this world
A total freak and dork
You think she doesn't realize
What you do to her
But my friends
She is much wiser than you thought .

A different approach she had
A different sway she carried
Not staggering, head strong she walked
And people mocked her on and on

I have seen her
I have known her
And she will always be special to me
She is dead now,
But I pity those who mocked her
Because you'll face worse...even more worse
It is not a curse,fate or blame
But the truth which will remain undeniable and undefined
For years and years to come
For whoever mocked a lonesome.

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

=)

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mom 2 me- after 10 years u'll watch this report, and you and me both will laugh at it...because then you'll be a far more better and successful person and I know you can do it...its just that you're not able to make out what to do ...but dont worry..you'll know... when the time comes. Right now just concentrate on your present. 4get what others say....they are stupid anyways. *keep your head on your mums lap....mum stroking your hair.....and everything seems clearer...and right...*

Sunday, October 10, 2010

This too shall pass

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Today morning when I opened the newspaper I found this column about how people suffer from different problems. Physical, mental. Someone suffering from a broken relationship, someone with financial problems...etc etc. All this while I thought that the problems from which I suffer like bad grades, fights with friends etc are the gravest problems of all. But looking at the dilemma of other people my silly problems seem nothing.

So as this blog is all about teenagers we will not talk about the BIG WORLDLY PROBLEMS. We'll talk about the teeny weeny tiny problems of teenagers which they interpret to be veryyy BIG! (Well actually they are big if you are a teenager)

So I'll just say one thing "This too shall pass". No lectures....no big  saint like advices...nothing. Just a simple sentence. Whenever you are in a problem whatever it may be break up,falling grades, stupid friends, a video game in which you lose every time whatever...just take a deep breath...exhale chill out and think in your head..."It's not that it will go on forever. This too shall pass". Like after every cold, bone chilling winter...there is a beautiful and warm spring....after every cold dark night there is a bright sunny day...your grey days shall also pass. Even if there ain't a sunny day after a dark  night and its raining....think about it...do u think its going to rain all year long..? No. Even if it does (which is actually not possible) adjust with it....and play in the mud puddles.

So I end my post here. Bye take care ,have a wonderful week ahead. Keep smiling. :)



Saturday, October 9, 2010

Real Happiness

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Earlier I thought that happiness relies only in materialistic things. Only if I could hang out with my friends at some mall....only then I could be happy. Only if I had this dress to buy and show off only then I could be happy. Only if I  get more pocket money then I could be happy. Only if i had this only if i had that only if i could go there do this meet them etc etc. It was only all about the things I wanted. It was all about the things I dreamt of having. It was all about 'I'. "I want you to listen to me" , " I want you to do as I say".  All the time it was I.

I remember the times when I used to feel so sad when I didn't posses the things which the children of my age possessed. Like for example an internet connection. I was in I guess 7th standard when I cried my eyes out in front of my dad. I wanted an internet connection because all my friends were on orkut and talked about it the whole day and I felt so left out . I stopped talking to dad and when i talked I used to talk through written notes.Dad explained to me that maybe the other kids had this facility of internet. You'll also have but it'll be the day when I think it's appropriate for your age. And so in my 8th standard I got my internet connection. I didn't even have to beg dad for it. He gave it on his own. ( Later I found Orkut so senseless that I deleted all of my accounts.)

Making a boyfriend/girlfriend at the age of 12 or 13 may seem like that most important thing in the life. We are young and we don't understand that all is not play. At that age we think that if only we had a boyfriend/girlfriend we would be called "cool" and it's so much fun that people tease you with their name. What we don't understand that all this relationship thing require a lot of commitment. We cant just walk in whenever we want to and walk out whenever we wish to. We should get into a relationship only when we think that we are completely ready for it and thats what we don't understand at that age.

You must be thinking that all this must be so embarrassing to confess and stuff. But am not a bit ashamed of confessing all this. It's not just me....it happed with a heck lot of people of my age when they were in 6th or 7th. The only difference is that am confessing it and they are reading it and smiling thinking about the times they had been silly. And I also know that if my juniors read this they wont stop doing the things they are doing. Its the human nature. Cant do anything about it. But one day they will realize like I did. And I wont say that I have grown up and know everything about life and stay away from all this. Am still a kid and commit mistakes,later cry for it, forget about it, commit the same mistake again, think about my previous mistake, relate it with my  current mistake and then realize where the hell did I go wrong. Its like maths. Today we might not be understanding a question. Screwed up the same question in the first and second test. But when the same question is asked a year later we have a better understanding about it and we don't get the question wrong.

Anyways enough about the bad and lecture wala stuff. Lets talk about the topic "Real Happiness" about which the post is about. I kind of realized when I came to Pune. (It's not that everyone has to come to Pune to find out about real happiness) Even though I hated the city at first. But now everything is fine. Happiness is now not about who has  the bigger horse. Maybe it's because I realised what real happiness is....maybe its because of the people. I dont know. But now I dont return home all gloomy as i used to. (Except for the days when I get my marks) Mum now says that I return home looking more lively than in the mornings. What's the secret behind it? Well I just have started enjoying life more. Now I crack silly jokes....laugh all I want and dont care about what people will say if I behave all crazy. If I like it I do it. Eating tiffins in the middle of the class seemed like a crime to me before but now it's fun. It's even more fun when friends say "Yaar tera tiffin matlab mera tiffin. baat ek hi hai." The realisation that you are not the one who hasnt done the homework. Earlier it felt like the end of the world but now its fun. If I my friend hasnt completed the homework and if I have done it the way they say " Yaar aaj mat submit kar...kal de dena please!" and the fact that I immediately agree to it and later when the teacher is gone we laugh like crazy about it is happiness. Earlier sitting online, watching TV or playing computer games or spending money at malls was counted as fun. But now its going on long walks carrying some vada pav and chips and cracking stupid jokes all the way and laughing like crazy on the roads and people staring at you and looking at their weird looks laughing some more is happiness. Before giving a exam a look at your best friend and they say "Yaar fati padi hai" and you know that you are not alone and later laughing about it is happiness. When you are all gloomy and you get messages like " Lilly Oh meri pyari lilly, dont be silly. Bring you'r billi and we will play billi billi" and instantly you laugh is happiness.If there is and exam and the fact that someone is there with you who hasnt stuidied all the chapters is happiness . And also the fact that someone will be there even if it's 3am to explain you the chapter is happiness. If i go on about it I can write a whole book on my experiences of happiness.

All I want to say is....its okay to be kiddish and immature. Be carefree. Laugh when you want to and don't care about what people will think coz people are just overly mature creatures who don't have their own business to mind and ruin others happiness. Don't let that happen to you. If you have such people in your life kick them out. They don't deserve to be in your life. Try to listen to you'r parents advice always. Whatever they do or say is for your best (at times you might think they dont understand you but actually they do). Teachers.....well....don't mind if they scold you. Laugh it off and do the homework next time so that they don't get an excuse to scold you. Or better....don't ever do the homework. (but i cant guarantee if that wont get you into trouble and even if you get into trouble....just chill and curse the person who wrote this post and advised you to laugh all the time and not do the homework). And yea relationships.....yaar wo toh aate jate rahenge...why to cry about it? Even if you feel like crying tell your best friend (theres nothing shameful about telling your best friend about it) and am sure they will instantly cheer you up.And if you do find the one for you dont ever let go whatever happens. Don't hold grudges with anyone.....or else later you'll repent that how much time you wasted holding grudges. And EAT! It's not your age to get a size zero!

So with this I end my post here. Take Care. And don't forget to laugh!


Thursday, August 26, 2010

Stronger than yesterday

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Yesterday,
You blamed me for something that i haven't done
something to start a new bicker
something to break up the love 
something to break up the bond


Yesterday,
you wanted me out of your life
Something that you wanted all this while
Something that will shatter me
Something that will make me cry


Yesterday was past
yesterday was black
yesterday was something that was out of the track


yesterday was bleak
yesterday was insult
yesterday was something like a hurtful tumult.


Its not just yesterday
Its every freaking day
when you torment me 
and later apologize and come back


but let me tell you now


yesterday was bad 
yesterday was shame
but now am just sick and out of your stupid game.


Yesterday was past
Yesterday is gone
yesterday is what that made me even more strong.  

Sunday, July 18, 2010

Teardrop

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Resided in your lovely dark eyes
Wanted to be immersed in them forever
Wanted you to hold me tight and never let go
Your smiling face in front of the mirror
Every morning was what I longed to see.


You after your bath
Sat in front of the mirror
Stared back at the mirror lovingly
and all the while I just admired your beauty
You gently pushed back the few strands
of damp hair from me and tied them in a bun
and gave a final smile at the mirror.


Today is different,today is special
You are wearing a lovely red dress 
with a hint of extra makeup on your face
though you don't need any of that
you'll be beautiful to me always regardless of how you look or what you'r wearing
Tell me are you going somewhere love?
Meeting someone special?
All i can do is wait and see the surprise through your beautiful eyes.


I can see you with a man now
He is holding you and you are all cuddled beside him
How I envy him that he can hold you,touch you
But I console myself
Because whatever that man is to you
He can never take my place 
Because I am forever in your enchanting eyes.


Today is different,today is hard
He is staring at you with a grim face
No understanding,no love in his eyes
He gives a final look at you and leaves
Doesn't even care about the pain you are going through right now
But love,I do
I do,please don't leave me I beg
But thats when you let go of me
I trickled down your otherwise serene seraphic face
Which has turned remorseful today
a single mere drop of tear is what I am to you..... 

Thursday, February 25, 2010

Photography

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We are going to some mall or somewhere…some time out with friends or family...we take a camera along with us and snap away pics. We try to capture as many silly, happy, fun moments as we can. Each photo depicts a story. After 3-4 years when we look at them, we try to recall the memory…try to relive the moment again. The feeling is so pleasant when we look at the smiling faces on the photo that we also smile unknowingly. Taking photos of friends and family is a fun task.
 Some people take up photography as a hobby and some people also have photography as their career. My biological brother has also taken up photography as his hobby. Earlier I used to think ‘what interests him in clicking pictures and then later spending hours in front of the PC editing them?’ But now I know. As I said every photo has its own story. It’s really fun deciphering the mystery behind that smile, those eyes, those lips, the blue sky, the setting sun, the broken door, the unfinished painting…. Its amazing to see how such a small thing as a camera can capture so many vivid colors and tell so many stories.
A good photo can bring a change pensive minds to happy minds, make us thoughtful…can even change the world .Now I can also say that “A good camera is mightier than the gun” lol :P :P  With a little practice and some knowledge about photography one can also be a good photographer but the thing should come from the inside.One can try out photography casually here and there but not take it up as a career if he/she is not interested in it.Just because your friend is doing it doesn’t mean that you should also do it(and one should also not do it if one’s mummy or daddy is pushing them near a hungry lion or something dangerous like that because their neighbour  some is some Chase Jarvis and they also want their child to be one…well you’ll be very lucky if you have such an amazing neighbour).Maybe you have some other talent..!! So friends am ending here. Keep clickin..! 
Do view my brother's photography here.

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Then and Now...

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I prowled around freely beside my mother
My father leading us through the thickets
Played with my siblings in the afternoon sun
The brightness smiling upon us.

I used to explore the greenery
A curious and observant cub as i was
I was once fearless and courageous and challenged everything that came my way
As because I was a tiger cub

But now,now everything has changed as I have grown up
The thickets are gone,the greenery lost
The afternoon sun scorching
My fearlessness is gone,my courage diminished
All because of a demon called human

I now walk,measuring my steps on my very own land
Search around for threats in alarm
I fear for my children more than me
Just because of the ruthless creature called man

He is cruel,he is powerful, and he's got all sorts of traps
He can kill us all at once
which he has done before
with just one flick of his hand

And now all I do is pray to God
That He lead us to a better land
Where all the tigers and all the various other animals can strive peacefully
And where no injustice stands

(I know it dsnt rhyme....!!sorry..)

Saturday, January 9, 2010

Girl in the Mirror

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I was once lost and scared
people came and consoled a lot
explained me stuffs
wished me good luck
told me to "try and be happy"

But then I saw a girl
she was standing there
near the door
I wondered who she is
where she is from

She looked lost...scared...tired
she was looking at me
I was staring back at her
her black eyes questioning me
the same questions that were running through my mind

I was somewhat dazed
I smiled at her to cheer her up
she smiled back
I moved forward for a handshake
she too walked towards me
suddenly I laughed
and she also laughed
we both looked at each other
and smiled
It was a mirror
with my reflection on it
I found it funny
how I had myself
become my own consoler
hapiness lies within
is what the girl in the mirror taught me